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I’ve always been deeply spiritual, feeling a profound connection to Source/God since as far back as I can remember. This connection has been at the core of who I am, driving my pursuit of self-improvement and my desire to access divinity and become a better version of myself. These values have shaped my life and have also fueled my quest to find meaning and purpose.
One of the main reasons I became a Pellowah practitioner was in the hope of helping my son. However, he was not open to receiving Pellowah. Earlier in life, we had led quite a spiritual life, but due to significant challenges throughout his schooling and the amount of stress and time that those challenges demanded, much of our spiritual practices and rituals were placed aside. We were busy with the physical demands of life, which were incredibly difficult and relentlessly challenging. It was a struggle for both of us for many years until his most recent school, where he's been for a couple of years now, which has completely changed everything for both of us.
While my son’s life was starting to improve, I found myself getting sicker. The years of stress and living in a state of constant adrenaline took their toll, leading to adrenal fatigue and chronic health issues. My body could no longer run on cortisol, and everything crashed down on me at once—debilitating exhaustion, chronic migraines, and other symptoms. I sought medical help, but all the tests came back without answers. Traditional medicine offered nothing, and it felt like a waste of time, money, and energy.
Having grown up on Chinese medicine and acupuncture—my father was a doctor but always preferred these practices—I turned to what I knew. I sought out a traditional Chinese medicine doctor, who was incredibly helpful. His Qigong acupuncture was amazing and he encouraged me to take a Qigong workshop to support my long-term health. The practice involved daily exercises, both morning and night, but at the time, I lacked the discipline to stay consistent. Eventually, I stopped and the idea of getting back into it felt too overwhelming.
Later, during a reading with a very talented practitioner, I learned about Pellowah and instantly felt a deep resonance with it. I just knew it was something I had to experience. I received a Pellowah healing and the experience was incredible. Even though Pellowah isn’t specifically designed for physical healing—it’s a tool for expanding consciousness—the healing I received within my physical body was astounding. It wasn’t just about physical healing; it was an evolution of my consciousness.
Immediately after my first Pellowah session, I felt profoundly different. It was as if I had tapped into an incredibly close connection with the divine. During the session, I was enveloped in gold light, with the universe showering me in love and affirmations. I felt the weight of the world lift off my shoulders, replaced by an incredible sense of freedom. It was a magical experience that exceeded anything I had anticipated, and I left the session feeling like I could walk on air. In the days that followed, I continued to feel the effects. My body felt transformed, and my perspective became clearer and more balanced. That first session was three and a half years ago, during the second year of lockdowns in the midst of Covid. Pellowah called to me at a time when I was ready for it and I realized this was what I had been searching for all along. It felt like destiny that Pellowah, originating from Australia, had been right in my backyard.
After that session, I knew I wanted to become a practitioner. Due to lockdowns, I had to wait about six more months to complete Level 1 and 2 training. It was a 1:1 workshop with the same amazing teacher who had done my Pellowah session, and every second of it felt like pure joy. It was as though this was always meant to be part of my path. At the time, I was also heavily into meditation, often practicing for hours each day. Looking back now, I see how that period of deep meditation was preparing me to become a Pellowah practitioner. I was working through important initiations and levels, even though I didn’t fully recognize it then. Those were tricky years—hard and exhausting. I was navigating the challenges of daily life while supporting my son through a difficult time, all while balancing my own journey. The experiences were difficult, but I can now see how they were part of a greater process that was shaping me for the work I was meant to do.
Later, when Kachina Ma'an came to Melbourne to teach Pellowah Level 3, I had my first opportunity to meet her. However, the experience was quite different from what I had expected. The group energy felt off and the person I was paired with was dismissive and prickly. At the time, it discouraged me from the idea of teaching Pellowah. Little did I know, this experience was an important lesson—one of many that were preparing me for the challenges of teaching and navigating group dynamics, especially within the spiritual community. I began offering Pellowah sessions to friends, but something still held me back from fully stepping into it as a professional practitioner. At the time, I was deeply involved in my work in disability funding, helping my son through a difficult time, and dealing with the demands of everyday life. It was hard to make Pellowah a part of my daily routine while so much else was going on.
I noticed that I was growing exponentially—the transformation was beautiful, ongoing and advancing at an incredible pace. Since learning Pellowah Level 3, I also completed an Ascension Teacher Training program, which was an important piece of the puzzle. It helped me navigate and understand the mission, purpose, cycles, and methods for my spiritual advancement. I began making significant changes in my life that better reflected the journey I was now fully committing to. During those years, I practiced daily—spiritual hygiene, ascension techniques and dedicated myself to personal growth. I was writing my own meditations and had fully stepped onto the path of awakening. Though my health continued to fluctuate, my mind was in full throttle and I experienced incredible advancements on my spiritual journey.
I had a lot of ongoing health problems and even as recently as a year ago, I was experiencing chronic, debilitating migraines. These migraines paused my ability to fully step into being a professional practitioner. By that stage, however, I had already completed many of Kachina's workshops, was attending Pellowah attunement shares regularly, and felt incredible shifts in my consciousness. Despite these advancements, my body was trying to communicate that something still needed attention—something that required deeper emotional release and healing.
There were times when ascension and expanded consciousness felt effortless and other times when it felt like an incredibly hard slog, battling through personal relationships and debilitating health that left me bedridden at times. For me, the two-year Melbourne lockdowns gave me the opportunity to slow down. Working from home and my son being more relaxed without the anxiety of school allowed me to integrate more spiritual practices. Every person I met, every meditation I did, became a steppingstone toward greater meaning and purpose. It wasn't sudden—my life transformed slowly and methodically, shifting from one deeply rooted in the physical and human realm to one of incredible connection with the divine.
What I didn’t realize at the time was that I had been going through a long dark night of the soul. Years before, I had effortlessly maintained a close connection with the divine, but after the birth of my son, harsh lessons began to unfold. Slowly, that divine connection began to close, like a tap being turned off. During those years of Covid, I had the opportunity to dedicate serious time to finding my way back to that divine connection. None of this became clear to me until later. In fact, it was Kachina Ma'an who helped me see that all of this was a test. I had to find my way back to the divine on my own. I attended another Traditional Chinese Medicine Doctor for a different style of acupuncture in December of last year and that, accompanied by a purge of physical items from my past, toxic relationships and implementing stricter boundaries, began improving my recovery from the physical ailments and restoring more vitality and functionality.
About a year ago, I had a strong feeling that a new modality was coming into my life. A few months later, it was announced that Kachina Ma'an, the guardian of Pellowah, was introducing a new technique called Umana. Umana took everything to another level, offering even more profound support. The leaps in evolution were astronomical—much of the heaviness, the sticky low-vibrational layers, were peeling away. Umana was a gift to help us purge and access incredibly advanced skills and gifts that would catapult our journey to previously unattainable levels. The guidance, resources and support that accompanied this transformation were a dream. The weightlessness I now felt, the passion for life and the access to incredible wisdom were just magical. It felt like the bridge between the true essence of the soul and the human vehicle was shortening, allowing me to be both at once.
Then in May this year, I felt called back to crystal medicine, a modality I had studied 15 years ago. I relearned Levels 1 and 2, and after waiting all these years, I finally completed Level 3. I still need to complete case studies to become fully accredited, but the journey has been transformative. If you are in Melbourne and would like to receive a free crystal medicine healing as part of my accreditation process, please visit my website under the crystal medicine section. There, you can read about all the modalities, tools, services, and offerings and let me know which one you're interested in. These sessions are at no cost to you, as they are part of my accreditation, but they are only available in person at this time, not remotely.
Crystal medicine is unique in that it is fundamentally about healing. While modalities like Pellowah and Umana are tools for expanding consciousness, crystal medicine offers both healing and expansion. It allows for deep release and personal development, helping us to go within and heal. Each of these modalities has come into my life at exactly the right time, when I needed to shift something that I didn’t currently have the tools to work on. Whether it was to shift, expand, evolve, heal, or release, a new modality or opportunity would present itself, allowing me to move forward in ways that were deeply aligned with what I needed at that time. This includes recently, when we’ve all been going through some of the most difficult months, if not the past year. That’s when I was presented with an incredible course about the Peruvian altar, known as the MESA. The tools I’ve learned and practiced have been incredible, with one of them being especially helpful for self-healing. Though it’s not a practitioner-level course, I do offer some aspects of this for free to my current clients when they are really struggling. It’s been incredibly helpful for me, especially in supporting the difficulties and challenges of this year.
Despite the challenges I’ve faced in reverting to earlier versions of myself recently, I’ve realized this too is part of the journey. Through all of this, I’ve learned that we are our own greatest healers. Traditional medicine didn’t offer me the support I needed, but the spiritual path has allowed me to heal, grow, and evolve. These modalities help me find my own medicine, and I believe everyone has their own medicine to offer. I incorporate everything I’ve learned into my sessions because it has been so life-changing for me. The evolution from living with chronic health issues and trauma to finding clarity, passion, and joy in my life has been incredible. I am passionate about these modalities because I know firsthand how transformative they can be.
My journey is about moving away from the pain and memories of trauma to create a life filled with meaning and purpose. I’m here to share that passion with others and to help them find their own medicine, because we are all our greatest healers. I’ve worked incredibly hard to get here—this has been a lifelong journey of learning, over 40 years of dedication. I wasn’t ready to become a practitioner until the end of 2023. Before I could hold space for others, there were so many puzzle pieces I had to collect: understanding, wisdom, growth, deep compassion, divine connection and evolution. You can learn a modality, but no one can teach you how to truly become a practitioner. That is a lifelong journey, like playing a game of snakes and ladders, going through the highs and lows until you reach a point where the universe agrees that you are ready.
You can study all the modalities in the world, but it’s the life lessons and walking the tough path that give you the heart and sacred wisdom to carry the responsibility of holding space for others. And even after becoming a practitioner, there is still so much more to learn. You continue to grow, evolve and make mistakes along the way. You hold yourself to a high standard, constantly refining your practice to become better at it.
Now, it’s the end of October, and it’s almost a year since I officially began my journey as a professional practitioner. I live the life of a dedicated spiritual warrior. I never pretend this is an easy path—because it’s not. The challenges and tests are relentless and there are many times when I slip down the snake on the board, having to climb my way back up again. Life, to me, is like a game of snakes and ladders; it takes real effort to ascend and keep moving forward. This path is not for the faint-hearted. I face my shadows, my past, my undesirable traits and moods, my age and all that comes with it. I’m still searching for answers to my migraines and other health issues. While they aren’t as frequent or severe, they remind me that there’s no magic pill—the effort is ongoing. I receive a lot of divine guidance and support and I feel blessed for that. I’m making my way through this harsh period, like everyone else, knowing that it’s for a good cause. Our ascension relies on constant dedication to climbing these levels. What I’ve found, though, is that the tools I offer are incredibly helpful in making this process more supportive, resourceful, wise and even rapid. The journey continues and so does my commitment to the path.
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